i passed my basic theory test

yeah. i passed my basic theory test. and now, i cant sleep. whats next?
so many things happened these few days that i could hardly rmb things that happened. i was knitting. just now. then. this thought came into my head. who am i knitting for this time? eunice knows who she's knitting for, and i used to know who i was knitting for. gena knows who she wanted to knit for, and i used to know who i wanted to knit for. but now, i knit. without anyone in mind to give it to.

there's so much love within me. that there's no space for anything else. and yet there's no other outlet to let the feelings run. there's no one to be one the receiving end. and this questions the need of love. the purpose of love. and why? who doesnt wish to have someone to hold? but who can love you without being told? well.