life is not a fairytale. it has monsters

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went geylang serai and city plaza to shop ytd! it has been so long since i went shopping. well. haha! it was so much fun. but at the end of the day my leg hurts so hard. but it was worth it i guess. haha! bought so many things. i think im the most productive of the 3! went to thrift shop too (: went eat yogurt. HAHA! did so many things.

1. 1 flora dress
2. 1 tube dress (same as jasmine and clar but different colour)
3. 1 boyfriend tee
4. 1 belt
5. i bag (same as jasmine but diffrent colour)

i shall post the photos of the clothes i bought some other time when i edit this post tgt with the pics from jasmine's cam (:

jasmine, deanna and clarissa. love you babes!




while we were on the way to thrift shop.


we had to walk such a long distance and try to get a cab. resulting in meeting wierd people who gave us wierd looks. and clarissa was so affected by it. haha. but me and jasmine were kinda used to it alr. (: haha! then went back to city plazz to shop more as we all had that shopping mood.









after we shopped till either we're broke or too tired to continue walking, we went to eat yogurts!




at the yogurt place! its cheaper then frolicks. but frolicks still the best (:



jasmine with her nuts on the table!


yeah! our yogurt! pretty!


me, my mouth and my yogurt. HAHA!


after eating yogurt, we saw this waffle shop! WAFFLE GANG! LOVES!



yeah, this is the bag that me and jasmine got. but in the end she got the brown one and i bought the grey one.


well. at least i enjoyed it. wasnt happy at all before i went out. but at least i managed to make myself feel very much better. thou i might seem that i dun care. but ultimately im as greatly affected as you are. it doesnt make me a greater person to feel this way but this is how i am. the strong feeling is back. cos now im going to pack up the things that were left over from the party. the things that brought back so many memories.

i will update more pics later when i get them tgt with the pics of the clothes that i bought (:
bye peeps.

life is not a farytale. its embedded with many monsters tat will eat you up at any point in time or at least create a major change in you. so i say to all. BEWARE.

dun tell me bout her. its breaks my heart.

went choa chukang to eat. cos went there to see some dunno wad prayers thingy. so yeah. zhen hao. dun worry. im not there to look for you. haha! but as usual, we took photos like on one else's business. haha! not really alot la. just a few. haha.

cousie's photography skills. haha. captured the moment.

me and cousie. HAHA!

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they never fail to camwhore and pollute my photo or break my lens! haha! sometimes cute. but sometimes irritating.
HAHA! yay! going to meet gals tmr and shopping! YAY! haha. sometimes i really wish all my wishes could come true. i dun have complicated wishes you know. im easily contented. HAHA! SHOPPING! i love shopping soooooooooo much i tell you. i can do it like so many hours and days without stopping. haha.

i cant stand it when someone tries to say sth that infringes personal rights without knowing it and thinks that he/she is very smart when doing so. haha. this is called a blog cos im entitled to write wadever i want mind you. if you're not happy den dun read. cos its mine and i have all the right to dsay anything just so as long as i didnt mention her name. did i? oh pls. i know wad i am doing. so dun think you can tell me wad i am supposed or not supposed to do. cos i think ultimately you do not have that right. HAHA! i didnt wanto say this. but you asked for it. firstly. let me tell you. you simply dont know wad youare saying sometimes that you actually offend that person. some people might say that you are innocent and blah blah blah but i sometimes think that you sinply just dun use your brain. borned with one im sure. so use it! dun waste it pls! next. dun think that you are closer to my mum and you win. cos ultimately you will not win me. get it? i just dun want to blow things up. so oh pls. theres no way you can fight me in terms of anyway or issue. so pls dun come tell me wad to do. i have more intelligence to know wad to do and wad not to. ah wells. im done FOR NOW. i dun think you wanna hear anymore hurting stuff from me. i have so much more things to bitch about you if you want me to and if i want to. im sure you dun wanna try me. go sleep. pls. you need it man. to open your eyes and to think properly before you do anything.HAHA. and oh! pls dun assume im talking bout you cos i didnt mention any names. unless you are guilty lor!

i wanna hold you till the end of time. dun keep slipping away. im having a hard time holding on to you.
nights baby. i love you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRIAN CHENG!

bda im sorry that i've not been updating. cos im seriously very very busy. really i swear. thursday was so called the last day of the papers. finished econs and went over to plaza sing to meet cousie to buy that pig brother's bday present! :) we walked the entire plaza sing and didnt know wad to get for him. so we ended up making such a cute mankey with a banana on him. i swear its the one and only in this entire world :) hope he likes it. haha! OH! and i had to go thru some procedure to make that monkey. i think it was quite cool la. just that i feel abit stupid while doing it. and cos i really feel abit stupid, i shall not elaborate on it. so now just see the pics for yourself of that cute little monkey that we made specially for brian cheng yi jin.

you know we had hard time choosing shoes for him?!? haha! his name is bryan, sounds the same as his owner;s name, brian. haha!

cousie and the monkey, bryan!

while we were trying to use the 'dressing table' to camwhore with bryan, we realised that there was a huge group of people looking at us. HAHA! so malu can!

see the banana on bryan's hand? we purposely go buy from action city de lor. so hard to find. den begged the sales person to sew it onto bryan for us. HAHA! now bryan will have banana to eat and wun go hungry anymore!

den after that. went to brian's house for some bday dinner. ate den went to work on his party on saturday instead. zp felt so tired and we both were distracted. so didnt really do much. when we reached there, many ppl there alr. his gang and all. and now, as usual! the photos!

brian, reiko, yilin, deanna!

weixiang, brian, junyang, jiajun. the cute gang that is always full of laughter and fun :)

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!~"

our so called new family photo. deanna here? there? yes no?

den after that went home to do brian's card. quite nice la. thats wad everyone tell me. well. i hope its really nice okay :) its the i think 4th/5th/6th night that im sleeping so late.ard 3 plus 4. haha. so tiring lor.

friday. woke up and mummy realised that she haven get the materials for the bday cake ready. panicked and went off. leaving me and cousie to pick meimei from school. its so scorching hot. haha! i can still rmb. and i also can still rmb me and cousie ate fries and icecream on the way! haha. picked meimei, went home and did abit of preparations of brian bday and went fotang. haha. yes. fotang. no doubts. :) zp came home tgt and stayed ivernight doing brian stuffs. did and did. went out to buy stuff till 330 am at mustafa. did like crazy till 5plus. den slept. haha! den saturday came and we were rushing all the work. haha!

did the powerpoint. which i will post some other day. lol. slowly more and more ppl came. its SHOW time. i'll post the photos some other day. cos its not in my phone but in the cam. so till next time i promise. when everything ended, managed to camwhore abit. so this is all i've got for now. make do with it la. i know you can do it. haha. as planners of the game, we go all out to mess with ppol as much as we can. but in return, we get twice we give. haha! amusing isnt it? played with flour and in the end got chased all over and poured floor all over my head. (by jiajun and junyang!) OMG! so so gross can. tyvm. you 'll see the pics for yourself. im like bai fa mo nu. but the prettier version. :) yes i know. dun wth pls. haha!

mini pool set! so cute. this was the set that mummy went to get so that it can be used on the cake. cos pig brither loves pool to the core. and he looks delighted when he saw that cake. eyes super big. and everyone was jealous. seriously. me too.

weixiang, brian and jiajun. small kids having fun with that toy set :) haha. i did play abit also la. quite cute lor :)

yapyap! xinku ler! he worked hard too. planned tgt with him de. see. he looks so tired. dun even wanna smile. heart pain.

brian the bday boy! <3

after everything ended. went back to my room. den i realised to suit i wore was quite nice. had to take a shot! haha! and im wearing matching shirts with zp lo. he's the black and white. im the coulourful :) YAY! haha. had fun had fun!

now! can yousee my hair? its white! so irritating. but ppl who dun play wun get to have this kind of fun. well. its not that i have anything against anyone. think A is better than J. seriously so much better. looks and all also. haha! cant stand the way she thinks that she can have everything done in her way cos she's rich. the pressie time. i was seriously irritated. really. but anyway. she's not gonna screw my beautiful bday :) cos ultimately i planned it with YY, noot her and for brian. so i dun really care about her. her impression 0. at least A's still have ard 80%.

i shall be a little mean here. maybe i shouldnt. haha.. i dun wanna sandwhich anyone. but one thing for sure is that i will never co exist in the same space with her after today :)

on a lighter note, deanna loves her family, deanna loves her loves, deanna loves her brothers, deanna loves ppl who make me smile. (smile but not smirk) AHA! its so late now ler. maybe i should go to sleep :)

nights baby. BROTHER! HAPPY BDAY! <3

loves all.

immensed hatred

im just too stressed you see. HAHA!

i really hate exams. i disallows me to do wad i want!! okay im just ranting away.
gp is over. i hope i can do well cos i think i managed. maths too.

now im left with history which i tmr and econs which is the day after. and last paper lit would be on 7oct. like wth. but i swear i will play like crazy when exams are over.

being more postive.. we are going to have a party right here at my place on theis sat!
pig brither is gonna have his bday celebration! im so looking forward to it i tell you! its been so long i really had fun. and long time since i planned a birthday party.. HAHA! sound so loser but i really didnt have much time to do it!

i dunno why they say s.e.a tougher. cos ultimately i think that cold war is worse. my greatest enemies are gorbachev and nakita.k i swear. why cant they co exist in peace? why cant the colonial govts in s.e.a just grant independance? why thaw? haiyo. now i know why they say that we should co-exist in peace. so that our next generation wouldnt have so much history to study! haha! im just talking nonsense. maybe i'll seem crazier if i say that i want to be hitler's mistress! (cos they holed up in a bunker and vowed their marraige and died tgt). WAD NONSENSE! i'd ratherstay single all my life. i wouldnt want o kill myself or be someone's mistress. HOR? (2nd level joke). lovesloves! im so so so so so so so so so stressed now. my brain gonna BURST!

go go go go study. i realised that i've been blabering nonsense in this post. have no idea where im getting to anyway. just wanna rant. maybe i just wasted some of my time typing this. but i guess it can be seen thati need to release some of that stress within me! haha. i miss you know who. so long never see him ler. okay deanna lee! stop ranting. okay i shall and i will.

im back to study (scratches head**)
bye.

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i wanted to blog somemore. hahha

bi darren is so sweet to me. when i felt neglected, everytime i tried to tell him how i feel i would always get more hurt instead. but just now, when i told him how i feel.. he told me to scold him all i want. he asked me to say everything i feel. and i felt really touched. he said he would hold me. he said he would understand me. and he hugged me. he changed so much. but at least im feeling better now. more secure now. more certain. more confident. bi darren. muacks.

loves. <3

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im bask again. its now 3 in the morning and i cant seem to get anything into my head! i am so not prepared for the history paper tmr! i feel ive not studied enough! hais! wad am i going to do!? >.<

dun think i can sleep tonight.

loves all.

I'LL RMB YOU

i had this video done cos i really felt like the way i was studying for o's these days. and you know wad. im starting to miss my secondary school days where we party all day. toilet party i mean. its so stressless and we can just go around doing almost anything we wanted. being as bimbotic as can be and running away from miss aw and all. but the good old days are gone. i regretted not treasuring the last few months tgt.. im sorry.. and you know i truly mean it.

although i dun really go out with you guys that often, i know you all wont forget me. like the way i will never forget you girls. loves girls. this is for you.



i didnt believe them when they say that secondary school days were the best. but now i know. i want to go back in time where everything was just so close to perfection.. i miss you girls.

loves.
i posted today cos i was feeling strongly about this and i thought i should say it now.

YES. we are meant to be.

today was supposed to be chionging day for GP. but apparently i went out to see them play badminton and even went to makan at jalan kayu. ate till i almost died. haha. and brian gave me a box of rocher. so sweet. now for the pics. like i would always say. a picture paints a thousand words. :) enjoy!

although i might seem like i dun care, i really thank you alot! for all the effort and the thoughts. so sweet of you :)

ferrero rocher. now im so stressed to do well. hais. haha!

stupid brian! slap me for wad sia! x)

me and YAPYAP! and yapyap is exclusive to me okay.

just like how exclusive TOOTY is only for him to call. tsk.

my dinner :) cheese thosai. loves.

haha! they look like mirror image. just a skinner and fatter version of each other. HAHA!

artistic shot of yapyap by the artistic me :) so cool right?

yangyang is still as cute and small after so long. havent seen him for a long long time. but he got really hyper and clicked well with yapyap. so its yapyap childish or wad?.. hah!

ice-cream! joseph!

poodle is so so so so cute. brought him there. meimei only wanted to play with him most of the time. so instead of reading through my notes, i spend most of the time looking after that little darling of mine. he looks so cute and innocent

QUNQUN!

you love distrubing me dun you! so irritating. but kinda cute too la. haha! pls jiayou for you psle la. its in 2 weeks you know! you cant afford to keep playing! haha. me too... >.<

i had much fun today. thou you know who is not with me and i really miss him lots. he knows it la hor? haha.

i'll play so hard after exams i swear.

nowi need a cold shower and get back to hit my books. i hope its not too late.

hey peeps. jiayou. we will all get promote tgt!

nights all. muacks.

till the next time i post.. maybe after exams :)

today. tomorrow. forever.

spend most of the time studying today.
GP almost done. more to do tmr. Maths did chiong quite abit today. History im left with cold war. Econs was almost to completion and lastly, LIT! which is NONE! congrats. i have 2 weeks for that. no worries man.haha.

den went out to dinner. went all the way to marine parade and found that the place we wanted to go was not there anymore. very clever. so we went all the way to this place at clementi and the first thing that came into my mind was.. farzanah stays there. HAHA! random. anw its quite cool there. luckily pig brother never come tgt. if not he will snatch food from me lor.


i felt like a cukoo i dunno wad when i saw them use the traditional stoves to bbq! so cool right? i can still taste the food in my mouth. haha. and mummy daddy said it was for me to boost my memory or wad you call that before the exams. cool. now its time to brush my teeth! haha.

crayfish is the love.
crayfish! i love them to the core alrights. ate like whole ton of sashimi and crayfish. HAHA. im not a pig okay.

in the end. i found out that pig brother had to go home and cook maggie noodles. oooh. so sad. never mind la. next time den bring you go eat kay! tmr de DB race must jiayou arh. get into semis treat you eat ice cream hor! (deanna say have means have!) haha!

till tmr. i will update again :)
nights all

before sleeping, just show you all 2 video that i did :)

thats all folks. nights loves.