heading down to where it started

i was just telling kj.
im so sick of school.
i know i need to do well, but im just so tired of it!
i didnt see the rainbow that was supposed to be utterly awesome. does this mean anything?
i guess i was in school till that time?

i dont know
it has always been like that.
so get on with life no matter how bored, tired or frustrated you are with it.

you cant change how things are going to be like for you. so, change yourself
im trying.

EAST COAST

IVE NOT BEEN SMILING SO HAPPILY FOR A LONG LONG TIME.

MY OH SO CUTE LITTLE DARLING POODLE.

IM BURIED!

HAPPY FAMILY.

GOODNIGHTS.

HIM

EDITED./

IM HAPPY NOW.

why do you want to something that you know will never bring you any returns?

why do you want to put in effort in something which you alr know has no ends?

why do i keep doing stupid things and keep having faith in things i knew right from the start would lead me wrong?

what is wrong with me.

deanna you gotta stop letting your heart lead you.

deanna you gotta start believing in yourself.

deanna you gotta stop relying on that someone.

deanna you gotta stop placing hopes on things you will never get.

deanna.

STOP CRYING.

STOP HURTING YOURSELF.

"STOP LETTING YOUR HEART LEAD THE WAY. IT GOES DOWNHILL."

THANKYOU 0937

I REALISED THAT IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE, OR SOME PEOPLE, YOU HAVE TO TELL THEM. YOU WILL NEVER KNOW IF YOU ONE DAY MIGHT REGRET NOT LETTING THAT PERSON OR THOSE PPL KNOW THAT YOU LOVE THEM. AND BY THEN, ITS ALL TOO LATE.

I NEVER SAW HOW IMPT WAS IT TO TELL MY PREVIOUS CLASS HOW MUCH I APPRECIATE THEM FOR ACCEPTING AND PUTTING UP WITH MY NONSENSE FOR THE WHOLE YEAR. AND WHEN I REALISED THAT I HAD TO BE RETAINED AND NOT BE WITH THEM ANYMORE, I REGRET NOT TELLING THEM THANKYOU EVERY TIME THEY DID ME A FAVOUR. AND NOW, I AM GOING TO SAY THANKYOU NO MATTER HOW SMALL THE MATTER MAY BE.

THANKYOU 0836 FOR EVERYTHING THAT IVE BEEN ACCEPTING AND TAKEN GRANTED FOR THE WHOLE OF LAST YEAR. 0836, YOU ARE AN AWESOME CLASS AND I'LL PRAY FOR ALL OF YOU TO DO WELL IN THE COMING NATIONAL EXAMINATIONS. GOOD LUCK. BLESSES WITH LOTS OF LOVE RIGHT FROM THE HEART.

THANKYOU 0937 FOR ACCEPTING ME INTO THE CLASS. ITS NOT EASY TREATING A RETAINEE AS A NEW CLASSMATE. I KNOW. BUT REALLY THANK YOU GUYS ALOT AND I REALLY HAD LOTS OF FUN DURING THE ORIENTATION TGT. BUT FROM NOW ON, WE MUST ALL WORK HARD TGT. PLEASE REMIND ME THAT I NEED TO WHEN I START TO SLACK OKAY? I NEED THAT MOTIVATION. AND I PROMISE I'LL GIVE YOU GUYS ALL THE HELP, SUPPORT THAT YOU NEED IN ANY ASPECT THAT I CAN BE OF HELP TO.

I GUESS THIS REALISATION IS NOT TOO LATE.

BECAUSE YOU CARED, IT HAS MADE ALL THE DIFFERENCE.

STAND THERE AND BE FAT.

XINGYI HELPED ME TO BRAID MY HAIR AND ITS SO NICE! I WANTO LEARN ALSO. PLUS SHE BRAIDED IT AT MY HIGHLIGHTS! SO NICE. AND THANKYOU SEBASTIAN FOR TELLING ME OVER AND OVER AGAIN THAT MY HAIR IS NICE, AND NOT MESSY AND EVEN TOOK A PHOTO OF IT. THANKS YA (: <3

AND BECAUSE HE SAID OKAYY, HERE ARE THE PHOTOS OF THE PRESENT! (:

I'D RATHER BE HAPPY & BE SATISFIED WITH WAD I HAVE FOR THIS VALENTINES. AND BOY, YOU MADE MY DAY.

FILLED WITH LOVE TODAY :D

DIFFERENT VALENTINES

WENT PLAY POOL LAST NIGHT AFTER FO TANG.

AND...

THIS VALENTINES WAS WAY DIFFERENT FROM LAST YEAR'S BUT I THINK I CAN BE AS HAPPY. COS I CHOOSE TO. I EMOED FOR AWHILE IN THE AFTERNOON COS I SIMPLY CANT ACCEPT THE FACT THAT THIS YEAR, HE IS NO LONGER WITH ME AND IM ALL ALONE THIS YEAR. BUT WAS BETTER AFTER TALKING TO SEBASTIAN. I REPEAT AGAIN, ITS A VERY NICE GUY WHOM GAVE ME A FREAKING SWEET CARD AND A LETTER 'D' HANDPHONE STRAP. AND NOT THE OTHER DISGUSTING ONE. I'LL POST THE PHOTOS OF THE PRESENTS IF HE SAY I CAN AS WELL AS THE POEM. YES, I READ YOUR BLOG AND I KNOW EXACTLY WAD YOU MEAN :) CAN I POST PHOTOS OF YOUR PRESENTS? HAHA :D

WENT TO WATCH MOVIE, WHICH BORED ME TO SLEEP AND WENT TO EAT.

OKAYY. GOODNIGHT.

WORK HARD 0836, HELLO 0937

DISCO NIGHT WAS DAMN HIGH. THOUGH WAS BANNED FOR COMPETITION, I DANCED LIKE CRAP. SO! YEAH! IM HAPPY. AND SEBASTIAN, NOT THE DISGUSTING ONE. ANOTHER ONE FROM MY CLASS. SAW THIS ON HIS BLOG. WENT TO DO. QUITE ACCURATE THOUGH.

"I WONDER IF YOU KNOW
WHY WE GLORIA ARE SO PRO
WHEN YOU SEE US AND YOU MEET US
DEN YOU KNOW WHY WE SO PRO
WHY SO PRO AHH
PRO PRO PRO PRO"

OKAY. THIS IS THE RESULT. IM A SEVEN.

Sevens are extroverted, optimistic, versatile, and spontaneous.

Playful, high-spirited, and practical, they can also misapply their many talents,

becoming over- extended, scattered, and undisciplined.

They constantly seek new and exciting experiences,

but can become distracted and exhausted by staying on the go.

They typically have problems with impatience and impulsiveness.

At their Best: they focus their talents on worthwhile goals,

becoming appreciative, joyous, and satisfied.

Basic Fear: Of being deprived and in pain
Basic Desire: To be satisfied and content—to have their needs fulfilled

Enneagram Seven with a Six-Wing: "The Entertainer"
Enneagram Seven with an Eight-Wing: "The Realist"

Key Motivations: Want to maintain their freedom and happiness,

to avoid missing out on worthwhile experiences, t

o keep themselves excited and occupied, to avoid and discharge pain.

I THINK ITS QUITE ACCURATE. REALLY WAD.

OKAY. I HAVCE A FUN CT.

AND IT WASNT AS BAD AS I THOUGHT.

JOB WELL DONE MUSTAFA! DANCING KING EH! THANK ME MAN! HHAHA!

WE ROCK. AND ROCK ON!

LOVES.

I FOUND SOMEONE WHO UNDERSTANDS HOW I FEEL. BUT WE'LL ALL BE STRONG. RIGHT?

HAHAH.

GOODNIGHT MY LOVES AND DARLINGS!

YOU CAN CHOOSE HOW YOU LOOK AT IT.

HERE ARE THE PHOTOS FROM THE DIFFRENT OCCASIONS DURING THIS CHINESE NEW YEAR THAT I OWED EVERYONE FOR A VERY VERY LONG TIME! (:

FAMILY GATHERING CUM GAMBLING SESSION WITH MY BIG FAMILY! :D

STEAMBOAT AT MY PLACE WITH MUMMY'S FRIENDS! (:

STEAMBOAT AT AUNTIE MIKO'S PLACE! :D

LION DANCE AT MY PLACE!! :D

the mess left after the lion dance left! hahah (:

GOOD NIGHTS FOLKS.