IM SORRY MY LOVE

This lie's become a part of me
For months, I've played this game
Acting like it doesn't hurt
Each time I hear his name
Ignoring what's inside of me
Pretending I've moved on
As if the feelings I once had
For him are somehow gone
Spending each and every day
With happiness and laughs
Forgetting all our memories
Avoiding photographs
But last night when I saw him
For the first time since he left
My heart stopped for a moment...
I couldn't catch my breath
When suddenly it hit me
As the tears started to flow
That even after all this time...
I just can't let him go

UNFORGETTABLE

I never thought it would be so hard to forget unforgetable you,
I lie in between these 2 broken peices trying to forget the things you do,
but what you do is unexplainable,
unforgetable, and lies lies lies.
This lost little girls sits on the crack of her heart and cries cries cries .
Nevermore, never ending, she can never forget.
These scars she thought was love...
She'll soon see its all BULL-SHIT,
but one day you won't be unforgetable you,
Her heart will not be cracked and she'll forget those things you do.
Two peices will be one and she won't believe your lies lies lies,
and unforgetable you will be the one who cries cries cries,
and those scars she thought was love...
She'll smile them away,and unforgetable you...
Will be a love...Loved yesterday.

A PICTURE SPEAKS A THOUSAND WORDS

and im not supposedto post this photo! HAHA! but who cares!

YEAH YEAH. today went out with tennis girls and becos kj was there. there was cam-whoring. xD

and we celebrated cherlyn's belated birthday! we went bowling and they went to get racquets. HMMM.

POODLE!~

MY CUTE LITTLE POODLE

I FINALLY FOUND MY CABLE AND..PHOTOS!!

OMG. this is the cutest thing on earth i've ever ever seen! his name is called poodle and yup its a toy poodle. birthday: 25th feb! and its only 4 months old! super cute can. i love my poodle!

MY HAIR LOOKS SO LONG IN THIS PHOTOS!

I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT WE ARE GETTING INTO..

okay. this is abit zi lian. but never mind.HAHA! we had alot alot of fun! and i love DY's phone! its so good for cam-whoring can! and we went to j8 and we saw these cute bread that looked like real one! MUNCH!! we were supposed to study at mac but apparently we were talking and taking photos all the time. so studying wasn't really effective or i should say.. effectivenes=0. HAHA!

i shall continus blogging some onther time thou. tired.zzz.

goodnights!

WINNIE THE POOH

some time ago me & meimei went shopping and we saw this very cure winnie the pooh! haha! wanted to buy it but we would have to buy 2 becos we'll snatch it. so we decided to just hug it and take a photo with it to keep our peace and harmony at home xP

i am sorry darling

i thought that i could forget him in this manner, but i was wrong.. i thought that by thinking that its all his fault i could forget him, im wrong.. im really so sorry darling..i have no idea how to move on.. i thought that by concentrating on other stuff would make me focus and just leave him in my memory.. but he is like stuck with super glue in my head.. there is no way that im gonna forget him or move on.. like there is no way a man can stand without feet..

without him.. i am lost.

i thought i could hate him.. i thought that by making everyone hate him i could get rid of him.. baby.. im sorry. im really so so sorry..

i guess im just thinking too much one my side. i also know that there are far too many problems between us that cannot be solved that is stopping us from being tgt.. i know it all. but darling.. do you know how hard is it for me to move on each day without you... do you know how tough is it for me to think that i am letting go of sth that i know i will regret for life.. i dunno how to move on.. i dunno how to.. I REALLY DUNNO HOW TO! especially when i see you being so happy with your friends..

without you.. iam lost.

im sorry for making you the bad guy darling.. dear friends.. yes. we broke up, but its not entirely not his fault.. i believe that he must have hurt alot to let go of me too.. i really hope that you let me go and you cried..

without zhishen.. i dunno how to move on. LOST.

i still do love you as much.. thou i might seem like i dun.. but i always will. deep inside.

GOODBYE. & I LOVE YOU.

only you and me.. those times..

i had lots of fun today with a friend which i haven't met for a long time..
well. i shall post about that later.

now i finally know.. when a person gets too much atention and haves to much fun.. he will never want to settle down with someone whom he used to love anymore.. i finally knew why he wouldn't want to be tied down anymore.. he wants to be the oh good single guy and always being there for ALL his friends anytime he wants without being restricted. am i really such a fear? am i really such a pain that he does not want to endure anymore?.. "all thanks to the nice **** who went to fetch me".. he knew that i'll be jealous and will forbid him from doing such stuff anymore.. he chooses them over me..

..insignificant.. i want back the times where there were only you and me..

"How can I forget you when your always on my mind? How can I not want you when your all I want inside? How can I let you go when I can't see us apart? How can I not love you when you control my heart?"

"Oftentimes we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to. Though that doesn’t mean that we've stopped loving them or we've stopped to care. Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you."

"Sometimes we tend to be in despair when the person we love leaves us, but the truth is, it's not our loss, but theirs, for they left the only person who wouldn't give up on them."

"You taught me how to love; you taught me how to live; you taught me how to laugh; you taught me how to cry, but when you left, you forgot to teach me how to forget you."

"Loving you was easy, losing you was hard. Loving you is still easy, but knowing you are no longer mine, is the hardest of it all."

"A million words wouldn't bring you back. I know because I've tried. Neither would a million tears. I know because I've cried."


"I thought that by telling myself and everyone else that I hated you. That sooner or later I would come to believe it. But I now realize that by lying, it makes me want you even more"

"Unconditional love is a beautiful thing.. untill the person you love unconditionally doesn't love you anymore.. Only then do you realize how much you loved that person and how much you have done and suffered and been through just to show that you love that person... now all seems worthless.."

today is just not the day to say goodbye.. neither is tmr.

i suppose some old man gave me these advices... thanks anyway.

"the clearest answers aren't those that you have to look high and low for.cos the clearest answers are already within you"

"so as to "why bother trying so hard"?,the answer is simple...
cos you care"


it's precisely cos you care, that gets you emotional.if you didnt care,there's no way you'd feel this way what.

i do not know if these are the true answers that im actually looking for..
i really thank you for being the first to give me answers..
DANIEL (keng) YOU ROCK!

facades.. they do bring more pain..

sometimes i really wonder if facades are good..
each time i try to put up a strong front; it hurts more on the inside. and sometimes.. i really wonder.. is my existence redundant? for everything that im trying so hard to do going to be backfired? sometimes i wonder.. "am i really trying to hard?" like he always tell me. but does it all matter anyway? my life is now so full of questions and apparently no one is able to give me any answers. while im in search of these answers i've come to realise that the harder i try to get these answers, the further they really are from me.. and here comes another question.. "why bother trying so hard?"
i have no idea where im heading to.. im just gonna walk and walk..

if no one else loves me.. i must love myself more.

OH HI..

oh well. this was done for REPUBLIC POLY DRAGONBOAT.
haha
upon request, can always help you guys to come up with shirt designs! xP LOLS
well thou sometimes i dun really know why some ppl's attitude towards one can change so quickly, i shall just love mysef more in the meanwhile!

BYE PEEPS!

ps.3648 days. still waiting for you

ZI LIAN! same mirror different clothes!

还在寻找

曾经每次你对我的好

还在祈祷

最爱的你回到我怀抱

听不到

你不知道

我有多难熬

没有预兆

其实我想你一分一秒

守着你的誓言风在笑

抱着你的回忆泪在掉

爱过的每一秒都是煎熬

难道你真的忍心

忘就忘掉

守着你的誓言

风在笑

抱着你的回忆

泪在掉

舍不得

你走掉

你走了

FAMILY CHALET

i just dyed my hair before going chalet. its red! can you see it? HAHA! its not very obvious though.

this is going to be a very very lengthy post. so be prepared.

3650 days. i'll wait for you.

well, i just came back from family chalet. HAHA! thou it felt more like chalet with punggol sec NPCC2007. imagine we had bbq for 2 nights! i almost died from all the food man! we really did nth much during this chalet except eating eating & eating; pool pool pool & pool. went there had nth todo den started taking photos with mei mei. den later in the night, yang yang they all came for bbq and i made all the childern take photo with me.

isn't yang yang so cute?! **like me?

OMG!the fire's burning!

cant believe that i ate so much food!

i had nth much to do so i went to take photo with the mirror. thou.

den we went to play pool at night. tgt with brian, christine (brian's gf), zp & jy. when we went there at ard 10 plus, there were like so many ppl la! den while we were waiting, i realised that i forgot to bring my ez-link! STUPID RIGHT! omg. i went back ALL THE WAY and went back. **still waiting. HAHA and you know wad. ZP looked exactly like a ah pei when he play, but he look quite shuai anyway. they all damn pro la. im like -.- noob playing with them. i think all guys who ren zhen are shuai de can.

RETARD ME!

im still having a hangover from all the shandy that i drank the two prev nights HAHA. and im feeling so damn tired now. i shall continus posting some other time..

anyway, i missed my com so much! and i missed tennis too! bye peeps!