immensed hatred

im just too stressed you see. HAHA!

i really hate exams. i disallows me to do wad i want!! okay im just ranting away.
gp is over. i hope i can do well cos i think i managed. maths too.

now im left with history which i tmr and econs which is the day after. and last paper lit would be on 7oct. like wth. but i swear i will play like crazy when exams are over.

being more postive.. we are going to have a party right here at my place on theis sat!
pig brither is gonna have his bday celebration! im so looking forward to it i tell you! its been so long i really had fun. and long time since i planned a birthday party.. HAHA! sound so loser but i really didnt have much time to do it!

i dunno why they say s.e.a tougher. cos ultimately i think that cold war is worse. my greatest enemies are gorbachev and nakita.k i swear. why cant they co exist in peace? why cant the colonial govts in s.e.a just grant independance? why thaw? haiyo. now i know why they say that we should co-exist in peace. so that our next generation wouldnt have so much history to study! haha! im just talking nonsense. maybe i'll seem crazier if i say that i want to be hitler's mistress! (cos they holed up in a bunker and vowed their marraige and died tgt). WAD NONSENSE! i'd ratherstay single all my life. i wouldnt want o kill myself or be someone's mistress. HOR? (2nd level joke). lovesloves! im so so so so so so so so so stressed now. my brain gonna BURST!

go go go go study. i realised that i've been blabering nonsense in this post. have no idea where im getting to anyway. just wanna rant. maybe i just wasted some of my time typing this. but i guess it can be seen thati need to release some of that stress within me! haha. i miss you know who. so long never see him ler. okay deanna lee! stop ranting. okay i shall and i will.

im back to study (scratches head**)
bye.

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i wanted to blog somemore. hahha

bi darren is so sweet to me. when i felt neglected, everytime i tried to tell him how i feel i would always get more hurt instead. but just now, when i told him how i feel.. he told me to scold him all i want. he asked me to say everything i feel. and i felt really touched. he said he would hold me. he said he would understand me. and he hugged me. he changed so much. but at least im feeling better now. more secure now. more certain. more confident. bi darren. muacks.

loves. <3

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im bask again. its now 3 in the morning and i cant seem to get anything into my head! i am so not prepared for the history paper tmr! i feel ive not studied enough! hais! wad am i going to do!? >.<

dun think i can sleep tonight.

loves all.