i am sorry darling

i thought that i could forget him in this manner, but i was wrong.. i thought that by thinking that its all his fault i could forget him, im wrong.. im really so sorry darling..i have no idea how to move on.. i thought that by concentrating on other stuff would make me focus and just leave him in my memory.. but he is like stuck with super glue in my head.. there is no way that im gonna forget him or move on.. like there is no way a man can stand without feet..

without him.. i am lost.

i thought i could hate him.. i thought that by making everyone hate him i could get rid of him.. baby.. im sorry. im really so so sorry..

i guess im just thinking too much one my side. i also know that there are far too many problems between us that cannot be solved that is stopping us from being tgt.. i know it all. but darling.. do you know how hard is it for me to move on each day without you... do you know how tough is it for me to think that i am letting go of sth that i know i will regret for life.. i dunno how to move on.. i dunno how to.. I REALLY DUNNO HOW TO! especially when i see you being so happy with your friends..

without you.. iam lost.

im sorry for making you the bad guy darling.. dear friends.. yes. we broke up, but its not entirely not his fault.. i believe that he must have hurt alot to let go of me too.. i really hope that you let me go and you cried..

without zhishen.. i dunno how to move on. LOST.

i still do love you as much.. thou i might seem like i dun.. but i always will. deep inside.

GOODBYE. & I LOVE YOU.