heading down to where it started

i was just telling kj.
im so sick of school.
i know i need to do well, but im just so tired of it!
i didnt see the rainbow that was supposed to be utterly awesome. does this mean anything?
i guess i was in school till that time?

i dont know
it has always been like that.
so get on with life no matter how bored, tired or frustrated you are with it.

you cant change how things are going to be like for you. so, change yourself
im trying.

EAST COAST

IVE NOT BEEN SMILING SO HAPPILY FOR A LONG LONG TIME.

MY OH SO CUTE LITTLE DARLING POODLE.

IM BURIED!

HAPPY FAMILY.

GOODNIGHTS.

HIM

EDITED./

IM HAPPY NOW.

why do you want to something that you know will never bring you any returns?

why do you want to put in effort in something which you alr know has no ends?

why do i keep doing stupid things and keep having faith in things i knew right from the start would lead me wrong?

what is wrong with me.

deanna you gotta stop letting your heart lead you.

deanna you gotta start believing in yourself.

deanna you gotta stop relying on that someone.

deanna you gotta stop placing hopes on things you will never get.

deanna.

STOP CRYING.

STOP HURTING YOURSELF.

"STOP LETTING YOUR HEART LEAD THE WAY. IT GOES DOWNHILL."

THANKYOU 0937

I REALISED THAT IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE, OR SOME PEOPLE, YOU HAVE TO TELL THEM. YOU WILL NEVER KNOW IF YOU ONE DAY MIGHT REGRET NOT LETTING THAT PERSON OR THOSE PPL KNOW THAT YOU LOVE THEM. AND BY THEN, ITS ALL TOO LATE.

I NEVER SAW HOW IMPT WAS IT TO TELL MY PREVIOUS CLASS HOW MUCH I APPRECIATE THEM FOR ACCEPTING AND PUTTING UP WITH MY NONSENSE FOR THE WHOLE YEAR. AND WHEN I REALISED THAT I HAD TO BE RETAINED AND NOT BE WITH THEM ANYMORE, I REGRET NOT TELLING THEM THANKYOU EVERY TIME THEY DID ME A FAVOUR. AND NOW, I AM GOING TO SAY THANKYOU NO MATTER HOW SMALL THE MATTER MAY BE.

THANKYOU 0836 FOR EVERYTHING THAT IVE BEEN ACCEPTING AND TAKEN GRANTED FOR THE WHOLE OF LAST YEAR. 0836, YOU ARE AN AWESOME CLASS AND I'LL PRAY FOR ALL OF YOU TO DO WELL IN THE COMING NATIONAL EXAMINATIONS. GOOD LUCK. BLESSES WITH LOTS OF LOVE RIGHT FROM THE HEART.

THANKYOU 0937 FOR ACCEPTING ME INTO THE CLASS. ITS NOT EASY TREATING A RETAINEE AS A NEW CLASSMATE. I KNOW. BUT REALLY THANK YOU GUYS ALOT AND I REALLY HAD LOTS OF FUN DURING THE ORIENTATION TGT. BUT FROM NOW ON, WE MUST ALL WORK HARD TGT. PLEASE REMIND ME THAT I NEED TO WHEN I START TO SLACK OKAY? I NEED THAT MOTIVATION. AND I PROMISE I'LL GIVE YOU GUYS ALL THE HELP, SUPPORT THAT YOU NEED IN ANY ASPECT THAT I CAN BE OF HELP TO.

I GUESS THIS REALISATION IS NOT TOO LATE.

BECAUSE YOU CARED, IT HAS MADE ALL THE DIFFERENCE.